Since the last time I did a proper update, I was supposed to have surgery to take out the fibroid sitting on top of my uterus. As of 2 weeks ago, my OB-GYN advised me not to have the surgery, for now, since I might still have a chance of bearing children. There were a few deciding factors as to why the doctor advised against surgery at this time: I haven’t been pregnant, have never tried to be pregnant, I am not sexually active (and have never been), and my eggs are still good. We know the risk of having children at my age (I’m 43) but she thinks that I should give myself a shot at it. So, for now, we will be doing the birth control shots, every 3 months, to control my bleeding, and to possibly shrink the fibroid. I have to return in 3 months to see if the fibroid has shrunk, and they will give me another shot at that time which will be good for another 3 months. After that, we will re-evaluate everything to see if we can continue the birth control route, or just go for the surgery, or even possibly a partial hysterectomy. I’m not looking forward to the latter, and I’m praying that I don’t have to go through that. But, if it will improve my quality of life, then I will seriously consider it, and just have to accept the fact that I will not have children in the conventional way. I’m in constant prayer about it, and I’m leaving everything up to the Lord and His will.



Game plan.

I need a game plan. I gotta get things moving. Me, getting surgery to get my fibroids out, has lit a fire under me. I just hope I can follow through. I’ve been complacent for sooo long. I think I’ve been discouraged with my circumstances that I think I’ve just been comfortable in my complacency for many, many years. I need to be more motivated now, more than ever.


Happy, happy birthday to this handsome man, Choi Seung Hyun, a.k.a. T.O.P of BIGBANG! I hope you are well, and enjoying your special day with family, and loved ones. You went through so much this year, and we almost lost you, but your fans are grateful that you got through it all. Please stay strong, and healthy. Finish your military service well, and we can’t wait to see you back in the limelight, making music, and acting. Praying for love, happiness, and peace of mind. Your fans love you, and will wait for you, that includes me! 😍

God bless you. Fighting! #HappyTOPday